The Girl in Blue (Narrated Flashfiction)

EVERY PICTURE TELLS A STORY (tagline black)

A life-changing… life-saving moment and decision.

Written by Dennis Lowery.

THE 12 DOVES OF CHRISTMAS [Creative Nonfiction]

I like dark chocolate and sometimes have a piece in the morning with my coffee. There’s a brand of individually wrapped pieces called Dove™ that includes brief thoughts and statements inside the wrapper. With our preparation for the holiday season each year, my wife buys bags of them. One year, I thought–leading up to Christmas–I would take that day’s chocolate wrapper and write a little about my first thoughts on reading it. Here they are:

The 1st DOVE of Christmas

Engage, Embrace, and Enjoy the special moments… a sunrise, a sunset, a full moon in a bright, crisp autumn sky, a smile, a hug… all that is simple and beautiful in our world.

The 2nd DOVE of Christmas

Sometimes, we think this takes money. That we have to be able to travel to distant places. Not true, though… for me, that’s one of my favorite ways to gain new–and to build upon past–experiences. But discovery often comes from merely doing something different or something familiar differently. Discovery means having a mindset open to its potential… knowing that there are opportunities for it, to a greater or lesser degree, each day. And when the chance is there to take it. Even in small amounts, we can learn and benefit from it. When you live with a purpose, I believe there’s something to discover every day.

The 3rd DOVE of Christmas

We all do it. No, not that… I’m talking about daydreaming. That moment when we slip into a mindscape of wishes, wants, and maybe a what-if or two. There’s been a lot written about visualization and how athletes use it for peak performance. Doing it—what you want to do or to get better at—in your mind helps. No, not that… well, maybe that, too. But I digress. Daydreaming can be constructive, but only if anchored—mostly—in reality. I mean, it doesn’t become or isn’t from the start an absurd fantasy with little chance of existence. Guide your daydreams, and base them in your real world in a way that fits what you do, who you are, and what you want from life. Make them possible… the kind of daydream that requires you to—real-world—stretch and reach. Making it tangible often starts with imagining it can be so and then believing in yourself enough to take action and get it done.

The 4th DOVE of Christmas

I disagree with this one.

What this Dove says (I think) and means is not to restrict love… let it flourish unbound. Don’t tell Love what to do.

Love can be unruly. It can happen when we least expect it. And it can run from us if we chase it. That can be problematic when most seek love and companionship, though I know some who are content without it.

But new love, at any age, that runs wild and free with the wrong person or a seasoned, mature love that becomes abused or untended can wither and end in anger, sadness, hurt, and pain.

For love to work, I believe one fundamental, paramount rule is necessary: to love only someone who loves you in equal measure. Love someone who respects you as much as you respect them. This must hold true at the beginning and throughout any relationship.

Love has to include respect, or it’s not love. That’s the rule.

The 5th DOVE of Christmas

Smiles always get me. The most beautiful sight to me is a smile on my wife and daughters’ faces. I’ve seen spectacular vistas from coast to coast, continent to continent, cities of light, bright shining skyscrapers that pierce the clouds, the views from some of the tallest buildings in the world, the subtle shades of sea greens and blues in oceans and waters around the globe, the austere grandness of canyons and ancient ruins that stun you with wonder at their age and how they were erected ages ago. So many beautiful places, man-made and natural… and nothing matches the impact of their—Daphne and my girls’—smile. Nothing makes me happier to see.

So, give and get some smiles this Christmas… yours for them (your loved ones and friends) and theirs for you.

The 6th DOVE of Christmas

Love. That’s what I got, along with the 6th Dove, for my birthday (which is in December). Love. My wife and three of my daughters to celebrate with me, and a warm birthday wish from my oldest daughter, who is married now and lives in another state. Love from friends and family… all important to me.

The personal messages within meant the most to me. The ones from my daughters tell me my wife and I haven’t missed the mark in raising them to be young adults with their heads on straight about what’s important. The others tell me I have—in ways—touched people in ways I don’t consciously think of… just by being me. And that feels good, too.

One year, I also got a surprise. From one of my daughter’s friends—a young man—who wrote a touching letter about how, over the years, he has come to view me as the type of father figure and man he aspires to be. Now, I’m not a perfect man—far from it—but I do try to impart, in subtle ways, some of what I’ve learned in life to not just my children but their friends, too. His letter was an unexpected and heart-warming gift.

I don’t need material things. I have all that I need and lack for nothing. [And yes, I’m fortunate and blessed to say that, but my wife and I have worked hard for what we have.] I count my riches in the love I receive and that I can, in turn, give to others (who deserve it), especially my family and those friends closest to me.

So, for my birthday, I got the greatest gift of all. Love.

I hope this holiday season, you all receive and give love in equal measure, as deserved.

And I hope you get chocolate. The kind you like, and if that’s not what you want… then the sweetest treat you enjoy most. Like maybe a chocolate-dipped vanilla ice cream cone from Dairy Queen.

The 7th DOVE of Christmas

This one says: “Take advantage of every free moment you have.”

Some would say this advice is about being productive; don’t waste time. Squeeze every bit into producing something. That in and of itself is not bad advice. I believe the road to getting ahead in life—and creating a sustainable good one—is paved by effort.

My writing work is mostly done in my head (before it gets to screen or paper, even if it beats it by a nanosecond), so wherever I happen to be, I can also work on something. In this picture, you see the area next to my chair, by the fireplace, in our family room. It’s prepared for those moments when I need to write down something I’ve just thought about or to make a note. So, I believe we should always be conscious of moments—lulls in the day—that can be useful. But you don’t have to feel compelled to fill them with work. Many serve you better as a time for quick reflection… for thought.

For me, it could be a moment to pay attention to the course of events around me and step away from work inside my head. To catch the flash of my wife or daughters’ smile… or hear a low laugh that spills from some other part of the house when my girls are chatting, seemingly amused or just enjoying themselves in their rooms… to overhear my wife talking with one of her friends and laughing together over something. To listen to daughters singing—loudly—in their shower… the streams of it sometimes heard in the evening. Those moments make me appreciate that my wife and I have created a family environment where we all easily laugh and sing.

Or just now [as I wrote this]. A glance and I see movement around the Christmas tree… Murphy’s suddenly discovered his in-the-house ball had rolled under it, and he’s belly-crawling trying to get it. He looks over at me and pauses as if to say, “Give me a chance… I’ll get it.” I do, and he does. He takes it, climbs up on his chair with the Batman blanket in it, and he’s lying over there alternating, gnawing on the ball and looking at me. It’s just a moment, but I’m mindful of it and him. It—and he—makes me smile.

I guess what I’m advocating is that in our so demanding world of digital devices, alerts, and reminders of a plugged-in, multitasking, and connected world… and in this holiday time of year, that can be so hectic and hurried… that when we have a moment, take it for ourselves. Hear the sounds, see what’s around you—that makes you smile—and plug them firmly into memory. They come and go quickly, but they all add up… if we pay attention.

As I sit here typing this, pausing to drink coffee, I hear my two youngest daughters getting ready for the last day of school before their Christmas and New Year’s break. I think of this weekend when we make and bake our first batch of Christmas cookies. And how when they come out of the oven and that pleasant aroma fills the house, I’ll savor the sensation and appreciate the time with them to make those cookies. It will trigger thoughts (year after year it always does) to back when they were younger, shorter, and had to stretch—or need help—to get at them. Little hands reaching up to the kitchen counter where the cookies cooled on sheets of aluminum foil. And I think of how they’ve all grown up and what good and strong individuals they’ve become. Moments like that and more make my day a better one.

I have to go now and want to leave you with this.

I hope that something in each and every day brings a smile to your face and a good feeling in your heart. Just remember they’re often there… hold them close and know there are more to come if you pay attention to the moments.

The 8th DOVE of Christmas

Hmmm…

I know that some of you do.

Others that I don’t know probably do, too.

And I’m sure most—if not all—assholes don’t. They do the opposite, and no one likes them. 😉 No chocolate for them. Not from me, anyway.

The 9th DOVE of Christmas

It was early spring 1978 on a Sunday at a teen (16 to 18 years old) dance club called ‘Tiffany’s.’ The song, ‘Brickhouse’ by The Commodores, came on, and Teresa G. got up on a table. It was like something teenage boy’s dream about… mesmerizing. Tall, coltish, slender with long honey-blonde hair, and though only 18, the budding curves of the woman she was becoming were there. She turned as she danced, and slowly, her hands ran down, without touching, the length of the outside line of her shape from ribs to thighs. They raised following the same line and further to clear the sweep of hair that covered her face, piling it up and letting it fall. Through mussed hair, I saw her gray-green eyes close and a slight smile, just showing the edges of teeth, form on her lips. It was a charged moment, watching her. Lightning in the air coursing through as the pulse of the music washed over me, on my skin, and in my bones. “She was mighty… mighty…” And I’m sure every guy felt it. I know I did. The song ended; she swept the hair from her face and stepped down. She returned to a nearby table where she had been sitting with a friend. Not one boy approached her.

I was usually a quiet guy (unless someone pissed me off), not that I was shy, but just because I was, and still am, not a loudmouth, or everyone’s buddy, life-of-the-party type of person. But I liked what Teresa had done. We lived in a relatively small town of about 36,000. I knew her only slightly—she went to a different high school—but she’d impressed me as the quiet type, too. She was pretty but not Barbie-doll perfect or carefully crafted to seem so. Not the girl every-boy-was-after… not the rah-rah-school-spirit, in the school’s most popular clique, kind of girl. I wondered what made her do something so extraordinarily intended to draw attention. So, I went up and asked her. “What was that?” and gestured at the table she’d danced on.

“I love the song, and no one asked me to dance. So I decided to dance anyway,” she said.

At the time, the deeper meaning behind that feeling and how important that underlying philosophy would become to me flew right by. But I knew she’d done something brave. At that moment, I sensed she had felt at odds… different from her peers… wanting to do… instead of wait… and decided on something entirely unexpected to celebrate how she felt about herself. That I understood completely. When the next song came on, I asked her to dance. Afterward, she left for work, and I returned to my friends. A few days later, I asked her out, and she went to prom with me.

Soon, it was graduation for us, and a couple of months later, I was off to bootcamp and significant changes in my life, new worlds, and new experiences. Teresa and I did not stay in close touch. A few months later, after more training and reporting to my ship, I came home on leave, and she was still working at the Burger Shef on Central Ave. I went to see her and saw she had taped a recent picture of me to her cash register. [The photo Teresa had was taken after a workout on my ship; my mother gave it to her.] So, I guess we connected, each giving the other something extraordinary, even briefly.

I’ve found in my life—more times than not—that what ‘feels right’ for me is the best way to go. I’ve done so many ‘spur of the moment’ things that I know most people would never do. Either because of some norms of convention they felt bound by or just their innate reservation or reluctance, maybe even fear of being that ‘free.’ Being spontaneous and making it work out, especially on important matters, takes contextual judgment based on experience. So young people need to tread carefully. But at the right moment… little things like dancing when you want to dance, singing when you want to sing… the ‘rightness’ of it fills you, and you just have to do it. Not for others, but for yourself. No harm, no foul… and not caring what others think.

We were oh so young… but today, more than four decades later, I still remember Teresa and why she danced that day. She did what felt right. “She was mighty… mighty…”

The 10th DOVE of Christmas

I love this one. There have been times in my life—two of them explicitly at critical points—when I didn’t wait for permission. Didn’t ask for a reservation. Didn’t wait for an opening… didn’t wait to be considered… did not hope for approval before I did what I needed (or wanted) to do. I showed up, expecting to be accepted. I created—or forced the creation of—what I desired. And it worked extraordinarily to my benefit.

When we–my family and I–drive somewhere, and we’re parking… we check the closest spot to where we’re going. When there’s an open spot right where we want, I always say, “They knew we were coming.” I tell my girls that only half-jokingly.

I believe in life, you have to expect room in the front row and expect to be welcomed and appreciated. Now, that’s not always the case. It does not always happen the way you want. But I know from experience that doing so (intelligently, with good taste, and hard work, you cannot be a crass, dumbass slacker and pull it off) works out in your favor more often than not. And that can help create a good life for you. Or maybe even—likely can—help turn one around.

The 11th DOVE of Christmas

This one likely means—to many—not letting the clock rule you. To take the time to smell the roses, and there is value in that. You should take time for yourself.

But another thought about time comes to mind.

I have a thing about it: focus on timeliness and being on time that preexisted the emphasis that military training instills in you, especially operations. Time matters: Time on Target, Time to Impact, Course and Time to Intercept, Last Contact Time… Run Time, Elapsed Time Speed, and Distance Target Motion Analysis. Relieve the Watch On Time. Time and Tide Wait for No Man. And on and on… So, I believe being disciplined with time is an integral part of success in life. But you have to make sure that it is spent on the things worth your time and on what’s important.

We all have work schedules. Even as a business owner/self-employed professional for 24+ years, I have deadlines, a clock, and a calendar determined by what is negotiated in my contracts with clients and the demands and requirements of publishing and publication deadlines (including production and book manufacturing lead times and schedules).

But I believe there are times when people let someone else’s clock (not their job or work) rule their life. Others expect this or that from you… Maybe you always say ‘yes’ to them when you should, but more often than not, say no. For some reason, you feel obligated to do as they ask or are compelled to do it to curry favor. Sometimes, you remain the gerbil on that wheel because you don’t know how to stop. And so you end up tense, frustrated, and feeling life is out of your control.

If that’s how you’ve let things become, then it’s true. You don’t have control over your life. You’ve ceded that to someone else or to the whim of circumstance. Your life is governed by the ticking hands of someone else’s clock or that of fate. And that is the clock you should ignore.

We often use the words ‘spend’ or ‘give’ when it comes to time and how we use it. Both—to me—connote its intrinsic value. And as the years go by, we consider how it has been invested and have to be ever wiser with the care and management of what we (presumably) have left. Remember that the time you spend must be on what’s worthwhile, and the time you give to anything or anyone… is never coming back. Treat time just as valuable as it truly is.

“How did it get so late so soon?” ―Dr. Seuss

The 12th DOVE of Christmas

I like dark chocolate and sometimes have a piece in the morning with my coffee. There’s a brand of individually wrapped pieces called Dove that includes brief thoughts, statements, inside the wrapper. One holiday season, I decided to begin on December 12th and take each day’s chocolate wrapper and write a little bit about my first thoughts on reading it.

Some will read this, agree with it, and be thankful.

I did, do, and am.

Others might view it differently.

How you feel when you read this depends entirely on where choices—and, to a degree, chance—have led you in life. I believe the former, more than the latter, are the drivers and determinants of our past, present, and future.

Just remember:

The past is not a chain; it does not bind us.

The present is a moment in time.

The future is not fixed or predetermined.

In a now-famous post-game rant, Dennis Green, the former coach of the National Football League’s Minnesota Vikings, said about an opponent they had just lost to: “They are who we thought they were.” It was part of a bizarre tirade, but here’s where it’s apt in the context of my thoughts on this DOVE. “We are who we think we are.” And I’d join that with, “We are where our decisions have led us… so we are where we are.”

This DOVE’s use of the word ‘supposed’ is critical. Here’s the definition of that word: ‘generally assumed or believed to be the case, but not necessarily so.’

Perhaps some read this and feel they are not where they’re supposed to be. Where they are is not a happy place, or maybe it’s marginal… not bad, but not great. Maybe it’s limbo. But there it is. It is where they are.

The question I have is whether they can read this DOVE’s statement this time next year and feel the same way or if things will be different. It primarily comes down to choices made between now and then.

Next year, I hope you hear your inner voice say what the ancient knight—the guardian of the Grail—told Indiana Jones when he selected the right cup: “You chose wisely.”

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So, my 12 DOVES of Christmas end here. I hope that something in what I’ve written sparks some thought or appreciation for what the messages mean.

Everything in life starts with what you think and how you feel. Make them (thoughts and feelings) good. Make them serve your turn. I hope they make you happy, year in and year out.

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CANDLE SONG [Fiction]

A Christmas Vignette


THE STORY

“Most of all, I remember looking out the window as I shifted around on the seat, clutching my purse and glancing up to make sure my bag was still on the rack above me. The station and buildings nearby were decorated and dressed in lights of silver, blue, gold, red, and green. As the train pulled out, they reflected off and within the glass, flickering by in a kaleidoscope of holiday colors. When the wheels turned, I took two deep breaths. A feeling of certainty I was making the right decision came over me.

“Soon, the train was outside the city and picked up speed. The view dimmed to gray with a lighter blur as we passed snow piled high in places along the track. Occasionally, color flashed from trees, their brown limbs thick with green pine needles powdered and sprinkled white. I saw country houses, too. My view of them grew slowly when the tracks curved toward them in the distance. As I got closer, they would fly past, a smear of more color on the frosty pane clouded by my breath on the cold glass. I liked it most when the train slowed at a crossing, and the flakes drifted down—a slower dance—as that sensation of getting closer to where I was going grew when the train went faster again.

“I hadn’t traveled much. The first time was when I surprised everyone by taking a job in the city. My parents went nowhere, not even on vacations, and had never been big on celebrating the season, but Tom’s were. He and I met the year before. Both of us had been stuck working through the holidays. I was young… new to the city and took my lunch breaks at the same time he did. Idle comments—nervous ones from me—led to conversations. I learned he was only a couple of years older than me and could tell how much he missed being with his family by the wistfulness of how he spoke of them.

“As that winter passed into spring, summer, and fall… we fell more in love. As the next holiday season approached, we decided to meet at his parent’s home and spend the day before Christmas Eve through New Years with them.

“I had grown up shy, but being with Tom made me discover confidence I didn’t realize was there. Still, I wasn’t always comfortable around people I didn’t know, so that Christmas would be very different for me. Full of anxious anticipation, I wanted to be with Tom, even if it meant being among strangers.

“Since then—and maybe it started with that trip—I’ve learned how much you can change the way things are, the way things once were, into what they become, if something triggers it. Even if it’s only a tiny shift… that makes you realize your happiness is determined by what’s in you and not by others. But back then, I was still learning about myself and life.

“I remember changing trains at Holly Oak. The small town’s station sat at a crossroads for the east-west and north-southbound railroads. I had come south and now would be headed west into the mountains on the 7:50 PM train. Two hours later, making better time than expected, I got off the westbound train in Tom’s hometown, full of thoughts of him, and stepped onto the empty platform.

“Bells rang, sharp and crisp in the icy night air. They were lovely, pure, and clear, not smothered by the sounds of a city that never slept. A girl of the suburbs and city life who had never known the quiet of small towns and the country, as the train I’d been on pulled away and its sound receded, I listened to them in the stillness.

“Night had fallen, but there was enough light from the streetlight on the corner to see the snowflakes. Making their slow way to the ground, adding to the drift in the lee of the concrete base of the bench I sat upon. The wind couldn’t catch them there and cast them away. The small pile was its own landscape; I saw a mountain slope topped with bare, gray stone. Then a bed of white snowflake-crafted linen flowed from shadow into the light with only a glint showing it was not fabric. It ended at the heels of my scuffed boots.

“It was a moment of self-reflection I’d never experienced. I felt the cold that came around the edges of the framework of who I was inside. Though 20 years old, I still had a scared child’s fear of the unknown. I loved Tom but had never traveled so far alone and soon would be surrounded by people I did not know. I shivered as the wind picked up and wished I’d worn a scarf as the icy gust feathered my hair and peeked down the collar of my jacket. As I rose to go inside and wait for Tom to pick me up, I tried to smooth my hair. I checked my watch; he should be along shortly.

“Then the wind carried more than the sound of bells. Voices. I turned toward the singing and followed it around the station’s corner that faced a park and off to the right, the beginning of the town’s main street. As my train pulled in, I hadn’t noticed the glow of the small group of people holding candles near what appeared to be caves that peppered the snow-covered hills surrounding this small town and hugged the station and park on two sides. The plumes of their breath accompanied each verse. The music touched me, pushing aside the coldness of the current of air that brought it.

“I listened and was warmed by their voices and the song’s message. It made me believe the things ahead in my life—ones I could never know would happen, though they might challenge me—could become blessings. It made me think of how the story of a baby boy, born to follow the path meant for him, had changed billions of lives over two thousand years. I’d not been raised religious, but in the words and beauty of the song, I found peace and hope for a purposeful life, too.

“I had bent to pick up my bag and turned to go inside, and there was Tom. A dusting of snowflakes sprinkled his dark, wavy hair, and his smile caught the light from the Christmas-ribboned lamppost above us. He lifted me, twirled, and gave me a quick kiss as he set me on my feet again–”

“I was stronger back then…” The man behind the steering wheel laughed.

I turned from facing the back seat to glance at Tom sitting next to me. Much stouter and gray-haired—just like me—the lights of cars passing in the opposite direction shining through the windshield showed the lines on his face. I smiled at him and felt a touch on my shoulder. I looked back at Cassidy, my youngest granddaughter, who had leaned forward. Twelve years old and still full of questions, she had asked me to tell her about when her grandfather and I were young.

“I love how you tell stories, Grandma! So, that was your first Christmas with Grandpa?” She had just made her first trip to visit us in the country for the holidays since we had retired and looked so much like her mother, sitting next to her, had at her age.

“It was my second,” I brushed a wavy lock of dark hair from her face, “but the first real one. It was the one that taught me the holidays mean so much more than big city decorations, parades, and shopping.” I reached for her hand. “And we don’t always know how life will turn out, so it’s important to have faith and a purpose.” I squeezed it and let go so she could sit back.

At the stoplight, Tom turned to Cassidy. “But there’s a part of it about gifts, too.” He reached over, took my hand, and brought it up to kiss and hold to his cheek. “Your grandmother’s the best Christmas present I ever got!”

“Do you remember the song, Grandma?” Cassidy asked as the light turned green, and we moved.

I saw the sign, only five miles from home, and looked at Tom as he slowed for the turn. To me… he was still the young man who lifted and swung me on that train station platform decades ago. “What, honey?” I shifted in my seat to face her.

“The candle song… the one the people holding the candles were singing. Do you remember it?”

My memory traveled back to that moment when my young girl’s mind was full of love, all awhirl about the future, and how hearing the song settled my heart and soul. “Yes, sweetie… it goes like this….”

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Note from Dennis:

My daughter Cassidy came to my study one December weekend morning with her younger sisters, Amelia and Bonnie, in tow. She asked: “Dad, have you heard this song?” I put down my writing pad and took her phone, turning it sideways to play the video. When the song ended, I returned it, telling her, “That’s beautiful!”

Now, my girl Cassidy has possibly the hugest, most loving heart of anyone I know (which she gets from her mother). Her greatest reward is when she does something for others that touches them, making them smile or happy. The song—the music video ‘Mary, Did You Know?’ by Pentatonix—she had just introduced me to did. I went to Amazon Music and bought it, adding it to our library. Then, with the song playing softly on the Bluetooth speaker beside me, I set aside what I had been working on and wrote the story you just read for Cassidy… and for you, too.

THANKS GIVEN [Fiction]


What readers had to say about this story:

“Hermosa. Lagrimas en mis ojos. Beautiful. I’ve tears in my eyes.” –Merchi Sananes

“Me encantó! La traducción era soportable. Felicidades, es precioso.Loved it… it’s beautiful!” –Elsa Bornay Delgado, Madrid

“Thank you for this beautiful story gift” –Galit Breman

“I loved this story, thank you for sharing.” –Tamara Copeland

“Perfect little reminder of what we are grateful for. Thank you for this. Love it.” –Dawn Jackson

“You were born to write, Dennis Lowery and that shows in every word. What a beautiful celebration of family. Lovely. Truly lovely writing.” –Sean Cowen

“Wonderful, as always.” –Sherry Thompson

“A Beautiful story. Thank you for sharing.” –Bernice Joe

“A story from Dennis Lowery, do take a couple of minutes to read his wonderful words. For me they always conjure perfect images of the story as if I were running a movie clip in my head. I highly recommend checking out more of his excellent work.” –Fay Handstock

“Beautiful.” –Deanna Elliott

“This touched my heart in many ways for I can relate in many many ways. I cried when I was reading this. For I feel the exact same way. And reading this with my three yr. old laying in my lap falling asleep… I look at her and am truly blessed in every way. Thank you for helping me see that again” –Brandie Chavez

“Dennis, this is a beautiful piece of writing. I love it. And it made me think of my own memories that HAD power over me that I did not realize until reading this. Thank you.” –Vera Athans

“Heartwarming and cozy, like a hug by the fire on the hearth. We need to be constantly reminded of what’s worthwhile.” –Liz

“I so enjoyed this!” –Lena Kindo-Kamara

“Dennis, that is beautiful! I love it.” –Joyce Swindall Jacobs

“I’ve seen this story play out in real life. It’s wonderful that you can put it on paper, the way you do. I loved it.” –Karen Gross

“A great and heartwarming story.” –Annemieke Reffeltrath

“This is lovely. I love how you describe the sounds and smells and sights. Great!” –Nina Anthonijsz

“Love it, Dennis! Your writing is awesome!” –Sylvia Sotuyo

“Perfect!” –Cilla Cantrell

“Beautiful, thank you.” –Tracie Parker

“Great and worthwhile read Dennis, and I especially liked how your story and postscript worked together to create a message that is both as beautiful as it is true and meaningful. Hopefully the core of it sinks in to every and anyone reading it.” –Michael Koontz


The Story

I flipped over the wreath in my hands to make sure the wire loop was secure. On the back was my wife’s small tag on all our keepsakes, so she’ll know when we got them. I smoothed the curled corner of the label; its blue ink had faded. That was a good year. My job had been going well, and with cash from exercising stock options and selling the shares for the down payment, we’d bought the house.

It seemed an eternity since.

Instead of hanging the wreath, I thought about our home back then. Plenty of room to raise a family, a fireplace, a beautiful yard, and an office for me. We had looked forward to it for so long. Dreaming of the day when we wouldn’t be jammed in a small apartment like the one we’d lived in since our marriage six years before. It had grown tinier with Anna’s birth just after our third anniversary.

We’d pushed hard to get everything done that year so we could move in before Thanksgiving and celebrate in the first proper home of our own. Diane insisted we stop after the closing to buy the perfect wreath she’d found at Costco to go over the fireplace mantle for the holidays. It was the first thing she had brought in and put up. Seeing her so happy and excited made me smile for days.

During the winters in our home, we always made a fire on frosty nights. I insisted on natural wood, not those fake logs, and bought a cord at a time. Sometimes getting bigger pieces to split in the backyard and bring in to stock the wood box next to the hearth. I can still feel the heft of the ax and the blade’s bite into the wood. A solid sensation from hand to wrist and up through my arms ending in a sharp, crisp sound in the frigid air. In some primal way, it meant something… that tactile sense anchored the setting—and me—at that moment: a man cutting firewood to keep his family warm at night. The making of the fire: kindling and some wadded newspaper to get the smaller pieces going. The first smell of wood smoke as it caught… the crackling and snapping sound as the flames ate into the wood. The moment of holding my hands to the fire to warm them as I watched it dance. It felt good.

On Thanksgiving Eve, we’d begin decorating, and the next day we’d play the first holiday music of the season. I remembered one song that touched me profoundly and whisper-sang a line from it: “The fire held the room in its warm embrace.” ‘Music Box Blues’ from Trans-Siberian Orchestra’s ‘Ghosts of Christmas Eve.’ Yeah. It was just like that. We would sit drinking hot cocoa on those chilly evenings. Just us three: Anna in her Batgirl pajamas, in front of the fire, cupping a mug in her hands. Me and Diane on the couch, my arm around her. We’d watch as a handful of flames palmed the wood. The flickering orange fingers, curled and extended, tickled and teased beneath the three stockings hanging from the mantle. The wreath, Norman Rockwell picture-perfect, just as Diane knew it would be. It was like us; a closed loop, whole and absolute in its continuity, purpose, and meaning. Good times. Warm times.

Until we lost our home and what our life had been.

I shook off the thoughts and memories. It was hard. My mind poked and prodded them as if that would change things. It—today, Thanksgiving Eve—was the beginning of our first holiday season in this apartment. We’d gone backward. I shook my head. Diane wanted to put the wreath on the wall over the TV. It was the only spot for it, but I didn’t want it glaring at me. I think it missed its place over the mantle and blamed me. Join the club.

I set the wreath on the table next to the couch and looked through the window at daylight’s end and the night’s beginning. An early winter storm had set in. The snow and sleet slapped the windows of the building as if to wake the people inside. It was blowing from all directions, like the stinging, agitating thoughts that swirled in my head. I leaned into it, pressed my forehead against the cold glass, and thought of what went wrong and what I… what we… had lost.

The neighborhood had put up Christmas decorations and lights earlier in the day. The streetlamps outside, wrapped in silver, blue, and gold, shimmered just beyond the rattling frosted pane. Inside on the windowsill, reflected on the glass, sat a set of three plastic candles with flickering red, flame-shaped bulbs on a molded holly-berry base whose green had mostly rubbed away, leaving yellowing-plastic leaves. A cherished decoration from Diane’s childhood. Outside or in, the colors were pale shades of holidays past. I shook my head, but that didn’t help me see them more clearly.

I heard laughter, pure… the ring of the sweetest of bells, and turned. Anna sat at the table in the tiny combination kitchen and eating area. Smiling and laughing, she made gingerbread houses with Diane, whose apron stretched tight over the unplanned child that would come with the New Year. Anna looked at me with the gap-toothed Cheshire cat grin she bestowed on everyone since losing two top front teeth. She was beautiful, like her mom, who saw me watching and beckoned.

When I didn’t move, she came over to where I stared, not seeing, out the window.

“Daniel.”

I turned toward her—thoughts still lost in the deepening dusk—but couldn’t meet her gaze.

“Close your eyes.”

I did, and soft, warm lips touched mine. Then Diane’s growing belly pressed against me, and a one-armed hug pulled me close. I opened my eyes. She held a sprig of mistletoe over my head and then lowered it to put both arms around me. I squeezed her tight, feeling the fullness of her stomach and breasts… of motherhood and strength. Then another hug from two smaller arms wrapped around my waist this time. Looking down, I saw Anna, face tilted up, her grin dialed to 10x power as she hugged us both.

“I love you, Daddy.”

“I love you, sweetie.”

I whispered in Diane’s ear, “And I love you more than I can ever show you.”

Her lips were on mine again, and then she rested her head on my chest. With their arms around me, time stood still while four heartbeats synchronized. Somewhere between them, a bone-deep certainty stirred to life what I thought was dead, long gone… lost with all those things an eternity ago. Its warmth backed off the chill, and I knew what’s important in life was my family. They’re with me and still love me. What we lost were possessions. If we want, we’ll get them back one day. I thought of how much influence the past had on me… the weight of mistakes made and the bad things that resulted. And I realized they only had power over me if I gave it to them. It was time to stop.

The jasmine fragrance of Diane’s hair soothed me. We’d gone through tough times and were still together, still loved each other. That’s what mattered… what counted. One day we’ll have a new house, fireplace, and mantle for the wreath to smile down at us from and a kitchen big enough to fit all of us. It’ll have a great yard, enough to run and play in for Anna and the puppy I had promised her… and for my son.

A timer went off in the kitchen. The buzz called for Diane and Anna’s attention. With a squeeze, they let go, but they still held me, though now a dozen feet away. The clatter of metal sheets from the oven came with the fragrance of fresh-baked cookies. I took a deep breath and sighed at the scent.

The silence outside drew me back to the window. The wind had fallen, snow now drifted, each fleck a small shaving from winter’s beard, a slow pirouette in the night sky. The flakes flickered in and out of sight as bands of illumination from car headlights painted them against a dark backdrop. I felt I had been out there for so long. Where the lights didn’t show you the way, and no coat or layer of clothing could keep you warm. Where you’d walk for what seemed forever, head down into a bitter wind, but get nowhere. Alone and lost inside your head.

That, too, had to end. There was no absolution found in wandering. I turned from the dark and cold and picked up the wreath I’d set aside. I hung it on the wall over the TV and stepped back to see how it looked. A few minutes ago, I had grasped what it stood for all along. A symbol of family and love. How could I have lost sight of that? It was always there. Home is with my wife and children. Not some fixed location or piece of real estate. It’s being together and loving each other, no matter the circumstances. That’s what makes wherever you are home. How selfish I’d been to hold my anger inside and let it chip away at all the things I should be so thankful for, all the reasons to be happy. I breathed deep from my core like I hadn’t in two years. It was time to give thanks, to live in the present, and appreciate all the good things I had that others might not have.

Gratitude washed over me, and I felt the past lose its choke-hold. We didn’t need to wait for things we could have now if we chose to. We could find another place that would allow pets… maybe with a park nearby. A puppy would be perfect. I smiled, thinking of the upcoming holidays and the New Year as I turned to my family. “Can I squeeze in and help?” Diane looked up from icing a gingerbread roof and beamed at me. Anna slid her chair over with a scraping sound and shined that grin. There was space. I sat between them, not wanting to waste another moment of my life in the past. I had too much to be grateful for right here, right now.

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Note From Dennis

I know good people who don’t have what Daniel has in the story. Maybe as they read it or afterward, they thought, “Nice story, but I’m alone. I have no one to be with or family to count on.” That is a reality for some, and what I’ve written, instead of bringing a measure of joy or warmth, might make them sad. And knowing that dismays me. I don’t want what I write (have written) to leave them feeling that way. I wish all good people to have what Daniel has… that foundation of love. And if there is anything in their life that is lacking, I hope they apply what I wrote in Daniel’s realization: You can’t change the past—learn from it—don’t let it control you. Deal with the present, decide, and act to shape your future. Life’s all about what you do now. Easier said than done, I know. But if you’re one of the good people, you owe yourself the effort. I hope you can be thankful for the good things in your life and that you create the reality of a positive tomorrow(s) through what you do each day.

REMEMBERING Paule: A Photo Memoir of Her Richmond Years [Nonfiction]

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Inspire – An Adducent Imprint

About the Book

REMEMBERING Paule is the compelling story of two friends, novelist Paule Marshall and folklorist and literary critic Daryl Cumber Dance, both committed truth-tellers, teachers, cultural critics, writers, and activists who wielded their pens to revolutionize their literary world. Marshall is often hailed as the matriarch of the Black Women’s Literary Renaissance. Her Brown Girl, Brownstones signaled a new day in African Diasporic women’s writing. Daryl Dance has been dubbed ‘the Dean of American folklore’ for her work in African American and Jamaican folklore.

About the Author

Daryl Cumber Dance has achieved renown for her classic studies and collections such as Shuckin’ and Jivin’: Folklore from Contemporary Black Americans; Folklore from Contemporary Jamaicans; Long Gone: The Mecklenburg Six and the Theme of Escape in Black Folklore; Fifty Caribbean Writers: A Bio-Bibliographical and Critical Sourcebook; New World Adams: Conversations with Contemporary West Indian Writers; Honey, Hush! An Anthology of African American Women’s Humor; The Lineage of Abraham: The Biography of a Free Black Family in Charles City, VA; From My People: 400 Years of African American Folklore; In Search of Annie Drew, the Mother, and Muse of Jamaica Kincaid; Here Am I: Miscellaneous Meanderings, Meditations, Memoirs, and Melodramas; and her fiction, Till Death Us Did Part: A Story of Four Widows and Land of the Free… Negroes.  

Book Information

ISBN: 978-1-9627290-0-0 (Hardback)
Size:/Page Count: 8.5×11 76 pages (color interior)
Publisher List Price: $24.95
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REVEALED: A Once-A-Week Reading to Understand Racism, Prejudice, and Bias [Nonfiction]

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About the Book

From the perspective of a Black woman, Copeland reveals lessons about history, the invisibility of racism, and the insidiousness of prejudice and bias, all in just a weekly five-minute read. Revealed is a resource for those committed to better understanding racism, prejudice, and bias. This tool will aid those who have been through racial equity training and want to continue their learning journey in a structured, proactive way. Not only does it offer critical information, it prompts deep reflection and encourages action.

As noted social justice advocate Howard Ross said in the book’s Foreword:

“Each of the weekly ‘reads’ is, in and of itself, a lesson in our understanding of the dynamics of race. It calls for us to stop, listen, think, and digest in a way that the modern reader can easily absorb and get meaning from.”

About the Author

Tamara Lucas Copeland offers this about herself and racism: “As a Black woman with education and professional experience in public policy, how was it possible that I fully understood individual racism, prejudice, and bias but didn’t see structural racism and didn’t understand its perniciousness, depth, and impact? Because the system, the political, social, and cultural system of our country has been built on bias and racism from its inception.” Copeland wrote REVEALED to open the eyes of others and to prompt actions for racial justice.

Book Information

ISBN: 979-8-9860859-4-4 (Paperback)
Page Count: 223
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The Palest Ink is Better Than the Best Memory.

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Stories are windows into our past, our experiences, and our adventures.

Stories remind us—often vividly—of our emotions at points and places in our lives.

Stories are also an immersive view that can connect who we were with who we’ve become.

Our stories—maybe most importantly—are a means to share what we’ve learned with others.

But memories can fade. Details blur, memories get fuzzy, and before you know it, those incredibly sharp narratives that once inspired us—and could inspire others—become hazy. Those who have heard them… forget. Or, maybe worse than forgetting entirely, the stories told them change and deviate. The ‘center’ of them—the real story—no longer holds.

If they’re not written, they’ll slip away, lost to time like a whisper in the wind or the lightning moments of our life, never caught in a bottle for others to see. Or they’re presented in ways we would not recognize or are changed enough; we shake—would shake—our heads in consternation. Think about that in context: the importance of having our stories rendered accurately or the risk of having them mis-told by others.

Or they don’t get told at all.

Think about the countless tales that have vanished simply because they weren’t documented.

Think about legacy. Your parents’ or grandparents’ stories… the ones you wish you had written, saved as they were told. Maybe it’s that tale of their journey to a new country, or the hardships they overcame, their military service, their loves and losses, their jobs, their children—your parent(s) when they were young—all the events, small and large, that led to your existence. Those rich anecdotes from your grandparents’ youth, the adventures of your parents before they became ‘Mom’ and ‘Dad,’ or even your own escapades that happened before the digital age took over. These narratives hold immense value and connect us to our roots. They give us a sense of identity.

Those stories are threads woven through generations, binding families together in a rich tapestry of shared history. Your experiences, lessons, heartaches, and triumphs should be added … expanding the fabric of a family’s generational history.

Or maybe you’re the first. Either because your past has been lost to you by time and context. Or perhaps—because of circumstances—through choice or because of hazard, you’ve no desire to connect with it. So, your life becomes the stuff—your distinct past, present, and thoughts about the future—to write upon a new clean sheet of paper. For yourself and the family you’ve formed.

Imagine the impact.

Writing these stories down isn’t just about preserving them for posterity; it’s about gifting your family with a piece of their history. Once written, they are like a time machine. Picture your kids, grandkids, and even their grandkids reading your words and getting a front-row seat to your life’s journey and—if you’re writing includes them—stories of others in the family. They’ll get to know you not just as ‘grandma’ or ‘grandpa’ but as someone with a unique story that shaped their beginnings.

What if your experiences could offer a fresh perspective, challenge conventional wisdom, or simply make someone smile on a tough day?

What if you’re the unsung hero of a tale that could inspire, motivate, or bring joy to others?

We all have stories like that. Sometimes, they’re known… sometimes, they’re waiting to be discovered beneath the surface of our memories.

Writing your story might feel daunting at first. You might think, “Who’d want to read about my life?” But authenticity is magnetic. People crave real, genuine stories. Your story might resonate with someone going through a similar situation, guide someone lost in life’s labyrinth, or serve as a source of entertainment and connection.

Your story matters; writing it to completion is a gift to yourself and others, including future generations. It’s a chance to leave a legacy that uplifts, enlightens, and links people.

Writing it can be cathartic, a way to make sense of your journey and even find closure where needed. It’s like having a heart-to-heart conversation with yourself, processing emotions, and finding meaning. Leaving behind a legacy that’s more profound than any material possession.

So grab that pen or keyboard and start jotting down your adventures, musings, and what’s in your heart. Write it down or have it written. Because The Greatest Story Never Told… well, that could be yours… if you don’t.

“The palest ink is better than the best memory.” –Chinese Proverb

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Need some help getting started? Read these articles:

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A House of Sorrow & Pain [Fiction]

Some haunted houses are deathly still and wait for you. Others contain souls that awake hungry and come looking.


Approaching from the sea, you witness traces of history in the fragments of carved stone and columns in 14th-century sandstone. Double lancet windows hint at a renaissance style, and other decorations adorn the crumbling portals of palaces once belonging to ruling families and princes.

It is a land of ancient city-states, morto e sepolto… the dead and gone. Remnants of forgotten and abandoned houses and estates sprinkle the countryside. Once thriving and vital, now no one lives in them, and the keening of the winds through the ruins is their only sound. Even in towns and cities that live, in almost all, there is a legend sometimes distorted far from its origin of a casa stregata… a haunted house. Some are deathly still, lonely cenotaphs, mere empty markers of a tragic past. Others contain souls that sleep awhile and awake… hungry.

Anime maledette bruciano…
eppure non emettono luce.
Una canzone di fiamme danzanti…
la loro musica geme nel vento.
Ascolta i lamenti
dalle donne dei dolori.
Le signore del dolore…

Le signore del dolore…

Cursed souls burn…

yet shed no light.

A song of dancing flames…

their music moans on the wind.

Listen to the cries

 from the women of the sorrows.

The ladies of the pain…

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The ship cleared Portovenere, entered the gulf’s head, and approached Spèza, a small city on the Ligurian coast. Within two hours, its sailors invaded the town in clusters of two, three, or more. But one man went alone; it was his way. He didn’t need companions and was used to being on his own; he had been for most of his life.

* * *

“They follow the ships.” The voice came from farther back in the shadows at the leaf-laden trees’ fringe where light ended and pitch-dark began.

“Excuse me?”

“You know,” the voice paused as the clouds in the night sky scudded to the north, disclosing a brilliant moon riding high above. In its light, a woman’s pale arm extended a long-fingered hand that pointed behind me. I turned toward several young men, my shipmates, who were surrounded and outnumbered by women at the outdoor bar under the street lights. “Those women,” the voice paused again, continued, “follow the ships.” The hand made a dismissive gesture and drew back into the dark of the moon’s shadow.

“Is that bad?” I asked, wondering how she’d sat so near without me noticing. A face came out of the darkness, like clouds parting to reveal a half-moon in a starless sky. Lovely. An almond-shaped eye under a sculpted brow, long lashes, and sharp lines of cheek and nose down to what must be a set of sweet lips.

“They’re not local.” The lips were a dark plum color in the dim light. Behind them, the pearl-glint edge of teeth. “They are not local,” she repeated as if an unpardonable sin, “they go from port to port.”

As she leaned forward, shifting in the chair, her face came into the light from the streetlamp. For that moment, she seemed plain, not unpleasant, but not beautiful. She sat back, and again only the moonlight graced her. That quick change in posture had revealed more. A blouse cut square and low in front. The fullness of breasts caught moonbeams and trapped them in the cleft between. They drew my eyes like the headlights of an oncoming car you knew had come over into your lane. My heart trip-hammered a double thump. Blinking away that second of fear and uncertainty, I thought she was exquisite. The woman you dream of or read about in stories and legends… who caused men to fight and die. Her eyes pored over me as she sat in the pale wash of a now clear full-moon-bright night. Stirred, my gaze moved to her lips and lingered. I wanted them on mine more than I needed my next breath. “You speak English well. Where did you learn?”

“During the war… we all did.”

I wasn’t clear on what that meant. What war… and what did she mean by we? Basics first, though. “What’s your name?”

“Nerezza.” I expected her to ask mine, but she said, “The night is sublime.” She gazed up at a moon that reflected in her eyes. “This,” and she flicked her hand toward the people at the bar and widened the gesture to encompass the streetlights, “is not the place to enjoy it.” She leaned forward, and her deep breath brought the arc of heavy breasts and crevice of cleavage into view. Her tongue swept those lips—eyes closed, she shivered—and their sheen beckoned. She sighed, “Will you come with me?” She stood, and the breeze strengthened, flattening her long, thin skirt against muscular calves and thighs; the swell of hips and curve of her ass distinct as she turned.

“Where?”

“A place,” she motioned toward the foothills to the north and east. Too dark to view now, but I’d seen them earlier on my ride. “About thirty kilometers from here.”

“Do you have a car?”

The glimmer again behind those lips. “No,” Nerezza smiled, “I travel differently.” She stepped away from the table and the lights. “You have this… yes?” she pointed to the Vespa P100 parked under a tree near us, which I’d rented after leaving my ship. At my nod, she walked over, pulled up her skirt with a flash of white thighs, and straddled it. Her legs extended, thigh muscles taut, to balance off its kickstand. I followed their lines from the ground to where they were palest under the moonlight. My eyes went to her chest—offered respects—and passed over those lips to her eyes. She locked on mine as she ran a hand over what I’d reviewed, following the same path my eyes had traveled. “Shall we go?”

I mounted in front, and her thighs clenched my hips. Her arms were around me, her breasts flattened on my back, and her hands splayed across my chest. The points of her fingernails dug through my shirt, and a primal scent came from her as I kicked the Vespa to life. Intended for city driving, the scooter would only do about 45kph, maybe less carrying two. We had a ride ahead of us, but I had time.

* * *

Nerezza’s directions brought us to where the hills grew into mountains. The Vespa’s feeble headlight shone through a gate onto a three-story structure several decades, if not a hundred years old. Cracks and creepers—thick twists of vines—ran up the sides of crumbling walls and overgrew the balconies. I shifted to ask her, “Is this it?” I doubted. She reached around me and turned the motor off, the headlight with it. My eyes adjusted to the dark. Different in the moon’s light, the old estate still seemed poorly maintained but wasn’t the ruin it had appeared at first. At the entry to the courtyard, she took a key from her pocket. She reached through the bars and turned the largest padlock I had ever seen around to face her. With a twist and click, she swung the rusted wrought-iron gate open.

“Here,” she signaled me to wheel the Vespa into the courtyard, holding the key, planning to lock up again once we were inside.

I eyed the wall and knew I could get over it. “I’ll leave it outside,” and pulled a coiled steel cable with two eye connectors and lock from one of the side pouches to secure the Vespa to the tree closest to the gate. “I don’t like having my ride where I can’t get going when I need to.”

Something flashed in her eyes: anger, derision, I wasn’t sure which. It vanished like that first glimpse of the house. So fast, I wasn’t sure it had happened. I walked through the gate and scanned the area and the enormous house. “What is this place?” I asked her as she locked it again.

“It’s been in my family for generations.” There was pride in her voice and something else, something unsaid. “My sisters, we… and others work and live here. Inside,” she nodded at the house, “it will be darker than you are used to. We use candles and oil lamps. It’s so much more… enchanting.” We walked on broken flagstones past beds of withered stalks and weeds. At a large circular fountain, she stopped and sat.

“Sit for a moment,” she patted the stone rim that encircled a basin with a surprising amount of water still within. Though the surface was covered with scum moss and bits of floating wood, the clear areas reflected the full moon. She turned her delicate face up. “I have something for you,” she said. Empty, long-nailed hands rested in her lap, then stroked her inner thighs.

I didn’t ask what; didn’t speak as I watched, and wanted to replace her fingers with mine. Something was going to happen; I knew it from that moment at the outdoor café. My skin burned and then chilled as she reached up and placed her hand high on my leg.

“Sit.”

As I did, the moon brightened. I could tell by her face alight with its beams. It drank in the rays as she smiled into them. The lips I’d seen as crisp red under streetlight were dark-rimmed now. Fangs grew in the moonlight, and her grip tightened on my thigh. She leaned to nuzzle at my neck, her voice muffled, “We have so much pleasure to bring you… once the pain is done.” Teeth sank into my neck, and the quickening of an orgasm began and soured in exquisite agony, and then… came darkness.

* * *

I shuddered and raised my watch; thirty minutes had passed. Still seated on the edge of the fountain, I touched my neck and felt the stickiness of drying blood. That did not bother me, but the piercing ache did. She had drawn something vital from me. I couldn’t hold my thoughts, couldn’t concentrate.

Nerezza took my bloody hand and said, “Come with me.” I followed. We entered the house. Just as she’d described, light danced from lanterns hung from the ceiling. As she took me through the foyer, circles of light-to-dark-to-light were everywhere. Music played, some classical piece, and there were voices. Entering a large room to the right, eight women lounged in a sitting room or parlor. Each, but one, was radiant and voluptuous, with long lustrous hair that ran from blonde to dark red to a thick ebony mass of hair on three, including Nerezza, next to me. A pale lady in a maroon gown off to one side also had dark hair but was a slighter build. Leaner with smaller breasts; apples compared to melons. But the stems, like the other ladies, were erect and prominent beneath thin, gauze-like dresses that covered them from shoulder to ankle.

“My sisters, Malvola,” she pointed to the largest of them, as big as me, with an intense, feral look about her. “And Chiara,” the smallest and seemingly youngest, nothing like her sisters except for the dark hair. And in bearing, nothing like the others in the room.

I sensed hunger emanate from them with their smiles of sharp teeth and red-tinged eyes full of rage or sorrow, tears unshed or that had cried too many. Chiara’s look was of abject loneliness. The kind I recognized buried deep inside even when you’re surrounded by others.

“In my room,” Nerezza pulled me toward the stairs, “we can be alone.” Her dark-wine lips twitched, showing that thin line of sharp teeth gleaming with a light of their own. “Away from the others.”

The stairs moaned with each step higher. A tall, clear window rose to the third floor at the turn and landing to go further up. The moon poured through, washing us with its pale beams. Smiling at me, Nerezza paused on the landing and pirouetted as if showering under the watery rays. She was the most alluring woman I had ever seen. I shivered.

Upstairs, the hallway was open to the floors below on one side but bound by a balustrade. I stared down at what appeared to be a small ballroom. At an even level, hanging from the high ceiling, there were three huge lanterns surrounded by six smaller ones. Each glowed with a golden lambent light of reddish tint. Six doors lined the side opposite the railing. At the end was a broad set of closed doors. Nerezza led me there and swung them open.

Inside the room was a central sitting area, lighted by clusters of candles on tables and sideboards, leather chairs, and a sofa facing a bank of windows. A set of French doors led onto a balcony that spanned the room. Stepping further in, the balcony overlooked a walled garden grown wild that had broken out and crept up the slope of the looming mountainside. Its thickets of tangled brambles resembled balls of barbed wire and concertina. A large bedroom was to the right of the sitting area; on the left were two smaller bedrooms. The room on the left, the inside one away from the outer balcony, had a massive dark wood door with thick metal hinges and a curious bar and lock arrangement on the outside. Walking over, I noticed it was ajar. Opening inside, I found gouges and rips in the wood. Stepping in, I ran my hands over them, feeling how ragged and deep they were, though they were still far from penetrating such a thick door. The metal bands that ran throughout the wood to strengthen it were also scratched and scored. Down at the bottom of the door were many smaller, shallower marks. Long scratches in the terrazzo floor and parallel grooves led from the door’s base to the massive bed in the corner.

Nerezza touched my neck, stroking it as she would a pet. “Malvola’s,” she said, leading me out and shutting the door. She passed the next door, the room closest to the balcony, without comment.

“Whose room is this?”

Her voice had the same disdain she’d used at the café. “Chiara’s.” On a table against the wall was an array of dusty bottles. “Cognac?” she asked me. My head was spinning; I should get out… run, but looking at her, I had no will to run away. She handed me a snifter with three fingers of amber liquid. With an odd compulsion, I made a gesture to offer the lady a drink first. Her smile broadened and showed the length and points of the teeth I’d felt earlier. “I do not drink… spirits.”

Without drinking, I set the glass on the table as Nerezza did something at her waist, and the skirt fell away. The moonlight from the window and the flickering candles played on alabaster skin. It defined the cords of muscle in her thighs and calves as she moved toward me. Slowly she unbuttoned her blouse, a curtain withdrawing from an elusive treasure. Recondite… then revealed before you. The sheer bra strained—straps dug into the flesh of her shoulders—and dark nipples stiffened. She moved closer and brushed against me. My hands twitched, left wanting, as she stepped away. In lace and flickering shadows, she crossed to the largest bedroom. I followed.

In the room there were fewer candles. Her face shrouded by the fall of raven hair that draped her shoulders, the smooth expanse of her chest a field to plant kisses. Two prominent dusky-tea-rose crested hills, and from the valley between—a teasing fragrance when she had been so close—a subtle perfume that wafted on the gentle wind from an open window that caressed our skin. Her hands cupped and offered soft round flesh to taste as she removed the last bits of cloth covering what I ached to bury myself in. Something drew me to look through the window at the sky. The scent of the moon’s beams, splendid in radiance, she, too, was exquisite in the night. Moonglow poured into the room, lapped, and flowed over the edges of the bed. The rustling of sheets, the most pleasant night sounds, was an inviting sigh of anticipation.

“Come,” she said, and her body beckoned. As I lay next to her, the tide of moonlight rose higher, and its ebb and flow ran through me as we rode satin-sheeted waves from there to eternity.

* * *

I awoke near sundown. I had been unconscious most of the day; what I’d experienced could not be called sleep. Nerezza had left me in the early hours of the falling moon, yet someone was in the room. The petite woman I’d seen the evening before stood in the shadow of the now-shuttered window.

“You must leave now!”

Groggily, I sat up and wished I hadn’t. The room reeled, and the emptiness inside me grew. I tried to stand and staggered. She caught me, her touch a static discharge that straightened me. Her eyes were not like the other ladies; they were as desolate in her pallid face but not threaded with skeins of scarlet or red-rimmed.

“You’re Chiara, right?”

“Yes. Hurry, Malvola is coming!” She gathered the length of her crimson gown in her arms.

“What?” I found my pants and pulled them on.

“She slept with Arianna last night. Nerezza was first with you… she is always first.” She bent, picked up something from the floor, and handed me my shirt. “It’s Malvola’s turn.”

I pulled my shirt on and searched for my boots. “Turn?”

“With you,” she kicked the shoes over, “hurry.”

“I can go over the balcony and get out that way,” I went over to the window.

Chiara glanced at me and away. “A long time ago, I climbed down to smell the roses that bloomed below my window at night.” She shook her head, and her eyes locked on mine, “No longer. There’s no way to make your way through. Others have tried. I must take you back the way you came in.” Her eyes filled with profound regret. “If I can.”

“What if you can’t?”

“You die,” she glanced through the door across to Malvola’s room, “in pieces.”

I followed her into the sitting room. The sunlight had faded, and the stirring of sounds and voices grew louder. A crazed cackle of laughter as lights came on and music played. The sound of steps on the stair announced someone as heavy as me coming back up. I heard their approach.

“We won’t make it,” Chiara warned me, “she’s here.”

Weak with bitter exhaustion, I didn’t reply, and she left my side to run to her room as a shadow filled the doorway.

“Have you the strength to play with me?” Malvola leered.

A splintering sound came from Chiara’s room, and I turned from Malvola to rush past her toward the balcony. Chiara came out holding an old double-barreled shotgun, 10- or 12-gauge, and a box of shells. The gun and box were ancient. The carton had gotten wet at some point; the cardboard still damp, smeared with old dirt and new dust. “Years ago, I kept this from a man they took,” she seemed contrite, “and hid inside a wall.” She handed me the gun and shells.

Malvola had entered the room but stopped in the center. “Half-sister or not, little bitch, I’ll settle with you afterward.”

I had broken the shotgun open over my knee and loaded two shells. It was stiff but loosened as I snapped it shut. “Can I kill her with this?” I leveled the gun at Malvola, who had taken a step closer.

“No, but you can slow her down, and maybe we can get by her.”

The blast rocked me back one step, but it blew Malvola three times that toward the door. For some crazy reason, that Lynyrd Skynyrd song, ‘give me three steps,’ played in my head. I braced and fired… boom again… and hit her square in center body mass again, obliterating her broad chest. As she staggered back through the doorway, the mangled flesh reformed but without cloth to cover it. I broke the gun open, reloaded, and followed. With both barrels this time. BOOM! I blew Malvola over the railing to crash two floors below.

Chiara grabbed my arm, pointing at the nine lanterns hanging from the ceiling. “There are eight you must hit.”

“What?”

“Shoot, destroy them, and it is a real death!”

I stepped closer to the balustrade and took aim, “Why only eight?”

“If you shoot that one,” she pointed at the closest large one. “I die!”

Click. Dammit… reload. Shit, only eight shells left! I shot the smaller lanterns first to clear them from shielding the three largest. A shriek from below accompanied each one. Glancing over the railing, Malvola was already moving, and Nerezza had joined her. Both headed for the stairs. I fired at the farthest big lantern—shattered it—and a scream raked my spine.

“That’s Malvola’s,” Chiara said behind me, “she’s gone.”

I lined up on the lantern that must be Nerezza’s. So focused I didn’t realize she was rushing toward us, a storm front about to break. She hit and drove me into the wall. Large chunks of plaster fell, but I held on to the shotgun and kept my feet. No time to aim, I whipped the gun up and fired. Missed, and no more shells. She grabbed me by the neck and pounded me into the wall like her hammer for a dozen nails. Twisting backward and lifting, she threw me over the banister.

Far enough for me to grab one of the remaining lanterns. Chiara’s. As I dangled, trying to get a better grip, another shriek—its bite, razor blade cuts in my ears—undulated. Chiara had jumped on Nerezza’s back, who ripped at her arms, legs, and face. She tore away ribbons of flesh from Chiara; that anguish showed in her bloody grimace. I brought my legs up and kicked at Nerezza’s lantern. It loosened. Kick. Kick and kick again. Chiara’s wobbled. One more kick would bring either one or both down. I darted a glance at Chiara.

“Do it,” she screamed, and with more strength in her slight frame than I could comprehend, she lifted Nerezza and threw her over the railing. I kicked again, and the second large lantern dropped free. Nerezza was rising as it crashed down, driving her to the floor. Her lamp—its glass shattered, housing bent, and the light extinguished—lay beside a now still body. A second later, Chiara’s came loose, and I fell. Cradling it and turning, I hit hard but on something other than the floor. Still, the ribs on my right side flexed, and one, maybe, two, broke with a stabbing pain. With a gasp, I got to my feet with Chiara’s lantern intact in my arms, and something semi-soft moved under me. I had landed on Nerezza… across her chest. A hug from behind made my ribs spasm.

“Chiara!” She held me tight as I turned and studied her, wincing at the sight of the flayed skin of her face. “Are you okay?”

“I will be. I’m not like my sisters. I don’t feed like them—never like them—and don’t heal as fast.”

“Why me?”

“The local men are old; the young move away,” On my face, she must have seen the question remained. “You can feed on the young ones longer,” she said in a quiet voice and let go of me to step away.

“No… why did you help me?”

“It’s been too long,” her face tilted up to mine. “The pain… the suffering… we had no right to take ours and inflict it on others just to live,” she spat. “As if this curse… was any kind of life.” She came closer again and touched my face, a soft brush of fingers. And though I hadn’t realized, there were tears she wiped away.

“What happens now?”

“You will go.”

“I mean with you.”

“I’ll die,” she pointed at Nerezza, whose body was crumbling, “like them.”

“I’ll stay with you as long as I can.” She smiled at me as if I had given her a great gift, and I realized what natural beauty was.

* * *

It was time, and she walked me through the courtyard. At the gate, she stopped and handed me the key taken from Nerezza’s body. I unlocked the padlock, threw it and the key as far as possible into the nearby tangled field, and grabbed her hand. But she wouldn’t move.

“I can’t.”

“Please, Chiara!”

“Out there, the hunger will be stronger—and I can’t—won’t become what my sisters were.”

“You’ll die.”

“Yes,” and there was no sadness in her eyes, “that’s as it should be.”

“I can’t leave. There must be something. There–”

“Is nothing out there for me,” she cried. “Go!”

I wanted to touch and hold her. I reached for her.

“Go,” she screamed again and ran toward the house and was quickly hidden from sight in the darkness of its decaying walls.

The moon was low in the sky, but I climbed the wall and unchained my Vespa. I had to be back onboard my ship in two hours and barely had time.

* * *

The sputtering sound returned with the dawn. It entered the courtyard, and the engine cut off. Moments later, she heard his steps on the stair. Chiara met him at the door.

“Why did you come back?”

Her wounds had healed, and she’d dressed. “How long can you live with just me?” he asked.

“What… what do you mean?”

“If I give you… me, my soul. How long can you live?”

“You can’t do tha–”

“You said I was young and strong. I am. So yes… I can. How long?”

“Months, maybe a year. I don’t know.”

“Then we’ll have that.”

“What about after?”

* * *

Onboard the long gray ship, the executive officer approached the captain with a clipboard in his hand. “Muster complete, Captain, one man missing.”

“Who. What division?”

“OI,” he tapped a line on the sheet marked Operations Intelligence.

The captain studied the man’s name with regret. “Never would’ve thought he’d go UA. Any police report?”

“No, sir.”

“Well, advise the embassy we have a man missing. An Unauthorized Absence. Send details from his personnel file and have the Master at Arms secure his personal possessions.”

“Aye, sir.”

“XO?”

“Yes, sir?”

“I recall he doesn’t have any family, right?”

“Correct, sir. No family.”

The captain shook his head. “Set the sea and anchor detail; we sail on time.”

“Yes, sir.”

* * *

He checked his watch; his ship must be leaving now. That sense of duty—the obligation—driving a vestige of need to return to his past faded as Chiara took his hand. With her, he knew he would never be alone again. The sky had passed from ashen with purple tints, shading to crimson, then saffron to birth-of-morning cerulean. It was daybreak, and soon they would sleep. And so it would be, day in and day out—they would go on—until he was spent. And then they would rest together forever.

* * *

LATER…

The house had stood empty for decades—alone and untouched—decaying as things built by Man are wont to do when uninhabited. No one knew who owned it nor cared. The voices and rumors of missing men had kept even the brave away. Then that stopped, and stone by stone, the ruins were cleared, taken by locals no longer afraid, and used for building materials. The site became as overgrown as the surrounding land except in one spot. A small square of land at the base of the sloping mountain with a patch of perfect grass and a single rose bush at its center. Each year, in season, two roses bloomed to die and flourish again.

# # #

The Story Behind the Story:

One of my followers/readers on social media (Sarah) posted a photo of a purportedly haunted house and asked: “Would any of you spend the night in that house?” And that made me think of an experience I had….

Many years ago I was in northern Italy. Night had fallen, and I sat at an outdoor café drinking wine and getting buzzed when a voice behind me said: “They follow the ships.….”

I turned, and it was a woman. The scene I describe in the story about what she said in disdain about the other woman, how she looked—oh, how she looked; I can still remember—and her invitation… is (was then) real. I was half drunk from the wine, then even more on how she looked at me. We climbed on my rented Vespa, and I followed her directions miles out of town until she motioned me to take a side road that ended at the entrance of an old house (as depicted in the story). Pulling the gate open, we entered a large courtyard and sat at an old fountain for a while…

She told me the house had been a brothel, abandoned for years but believed haunted. And about what she called the ‘ladies of the sorrows and pain’ who worked there. We walked to the front entry, and she stepped inside and beckoned. I saw what had once been a beautiful foyer and grand stairway. I walked to it and took six or seven steps up. Each one moaned… creeping the shit out of me. I turned to look for the girl to see if she was following, and she wasn’t there. My back turned to the higher steps, and something or someone ran an icy hand down the back of my neck and across my shoulder. A caress. I jumped down the steps and headed out the door.

Outside, I looked for the girl but never saw her again.

I got on my Vespa and headed back to town. At the café where I’d been drinking, I asked about the place and learned it had been a brothel that catered to Nazi officers in World War II and then switched to welcome Americans as they kicked out the Nazis. One night in October 1948, someone killed all nine women working there. The bartender talked about the many men that had gone missing in that area since 1949.

That dormant memory stuck in my mind for years, and Sarah’s question woke it. And so, a story was born.

The Boy Who Got Away [Hybrid Creative Nonfiction-Fiction]

On Sunday mornings after chores, my two youngest daughters and I usually picked out a scary movie or maybe a science-fiction classic to watch. But for a while, it was Supernatural, a series I didn’t know but eventually ran for something like 15 seasons. Serious binge-watching bounty. On the show, Sam and Dean, the Winchester brothers, hunted and killed all kinds of ghosts, demons, and paranormal thingies. The series draws on myth and urban legend as the basis of the storylines. I enjoyed it as much as Alpha and Beta [not their actual names, my then 14-year-old twin daughters]. I worked on story notes one late October Sunday while they watched the series.

“Dad?”

I looked over at Alpha. “Yeah, honey.” It’s funny with twins. They often ask questions they seem to have reached a consensus on through some nonverbal means of communication. I looked up from my notepad to see them glance at each other and nod their heads like, ‘Go ahead, ask him.’

“What, girls?”

“Do you believe in…” Alpha used the remote control to point at the TV and pause the show, “ghosts and demons?”

I put my mechanical pencil down. [At that time, I handwrote story and scene notes with a Staedtler Graphite 771 or a Faber Castell Pearwood E-motion, now I use a reMarkable 2 eInk device.] Then set my lap desk on the ottoman by my chair. I turned to them both. “You know about what happened to me in Italy?” [Which became the basis of another story, A House of Sorrow and Pain.]

Alpha nodded her head. Beta asked me, “But what about when you were a kid?”

“I can tell you about a boy and what happened to him. Want to hear?” They nodded, so I told them (improvising it as I went):

“The boy was always happiest outside and on his own. His family lived, barely above the poverty line, in the country on thirty acres of land. About two-thirds forest, the rest pasture, and a dying pond. It seemed all he did was work; there were always things to fix or repair when everything’s held together with baling wire, tape, and a prayer it lasted until money came in. When he had free time, late in the day, he would stuff a canteen of water (sometimes a can of Coke), a bag of beef jerky, a book, and a flashlight to read by once the sun started setting into a small backpack and disappear into a remote corner of the woods.

“One Halloween, he was in the farthest part where his family’s land ended and sloped toward the road leading to what he and his friends called The Point, but was Grey’s Landing on the lake.

“The sun was setting, and through clear patches, he could view the moon rising low in the sky behind the trees. Their tops rustled and moved in the crisp, chill wind that bent them away from the direction of home. He shined his light on his wristwatch. Seeing the time, he rose from the knee-high stump he’d been sitting on and headed that way along the path. As he stood, stretching and brushing off the seat of his pants, behind him came a baying. An ululation that stabbed the night [I had to stop to explain to Alpha and Beta what that word meant]. A call strong enough to beat through the wind’s gasp that flowed around tree trunks and through leaves to reach him. The beast’s lament, colder than the falling night air, sent shivers through him.

“The boy was halfway out of the woods when a second, closer howl came, accompanied by the sound of gnashing teeth and chattering of fangs. Now he ran through a dry autumn forest; sticks and branches snapped and cracked as he made his way. Ahead, a wail flowed down to him, followed by a third shriek behind him.

Whatever they were, he realized they were working together. He angled to his left off the trail, hoping to lose what hunted him, now running fast. Hitting limbs that didn’t break but snagged the hood of his sweater and tore long gashes in his face and neck, his forearms protected by long sleeves. His hands became scored and cut, trying to protect his face. Blood flowed in streaks.

“Gasping, the boy gripped a tree for a moment’s pause, hanging on to catch his breath. He ran on at the caterwaul behind him [had to stop and explain that word too] of beasts close on the scent of their prey.

“Clouds were building, and the wind picked up as he broke through onto the crest where trees ended and the pits began. Broad swaths of excavation and deep gouges made in the pasture; the source of fill dirt his father sold to local construction companies. He had to go down into and through them before climbing back up for the open stretch to his home.

“He sprinted, his lungs straining and heart pounding louder than the wind. There were no more cries as he slowed to listen. Off the upward slope that plateaued, he passed the set of gnarled pear trees atop the rise overlooking the pond. Only 1000 yards down, then up again to his home, sitting on the next hill. His thigh muscles twitched and jumped, and his gait became choppy. The impact of his feet as he planted them, a flat-footed, jarring jolt with each stride and a near-puke feeling in his throat. With leaden arms he could barely lift, he spat to the side and looked up at the house back-lit by the last blood-orange remnants of sundown. He could make it.

“Halfway there, he felt something almost on him. The snarl so close he smelled rank, rotted-meat breath. He looked over his shoulder. Its yellow eyes widened, and long teeth glinted in the moonlight as a taloned hand, thick with coarse black hair, reached for him. Claws dug into his flesh and turned him. Spun to the ground, a spray of saliva hit his face as the howl climbed to a scream. He rolled and got to his feet; his sweater and shirt ripped from his back. In his hand was the WWII-era Oneida M1905 bayonet he had bought at a flea market and always carried into the woods. Just then, a sheet of icy rain swept over them….”

My daughters’ eyes had grown wide as I told the story. They became larger still when I stopped talking and waited.

“Dad…” they finally blinked, “what happens next? Did the boy die?”

I said nothing, leaned toward them, and pulled my t-shirt down, showing them my right shoulder and the scar that ran across it. “He got away.”

# # #


As a father, I’ve learned to keep my girls on their toes over the years. And I got away long ago… from where I was to undertake a transformative journey that led to love and the family I have today.

Give a listen to the following music video, a centuries-old song about transformation… and love.